Post by thapunkpred15 on Apr 4, 2008 23:53:33 GMT -5
Me. My name is Charles Mckire.My Nick name is Baby bear. Im 15 yrs old and things around me have taken a drastic change. Its 2008. I live in Chicago. I go to Morgan park high school. Im different from your other people. I have had a mind set to get rid of the evil so the innocent can live in harmony. I guess you can say Hitler organized. My school and its enviorment has gotten worse. Thugs such as Gangster Desciples, Black desciples, and M.O.E are f*cking with my head like crazy. After they revealed themselves I've grown to have a insane and sadistic mindset towards them. Soon enough my school will be a breeding ground for this piece of scum.
The sun was shining as the breeze of wind gave off a brief chill every now and then. I get up out of bed and wash up. Everytime I see myself in the mirror I see a garbage can. Useless. My grandmother depends on me to be someone becuase she says "Im the only one in the family that can do something right besides my aunt". I believed it and sometimes this stopped me from commiting suicide. I go downstairs and eat breakfast. Simple like most days I had honey nut cheerios. I ignored every word my brother spoke to me. As I walked back upstairs to my room I went right to my dresser. I pulled out a black shirt with the Slipknot band on it. I put it on and then I went to put on my tight denim dark blue jeans followed by my black converse.
I felt kind of depressed. I hate having to go to a school with thugs and whores that have no respect. I hurriedly went to the bathroom and painted my nails black.Once I was finished I waited until my grandmother was ready to drive me to school. Its close to summertime so these gangs can go crazy over something like me. I arrived to school walking down the sidewalk and looking forward like I was in a trance. I went inside and went through the metal detector. I have nothing. Im clean. I walk into the lunchroom where a few other students were waiting. I sat by a table all by myself and listened to my Ipod.
I would always listen to "Diary of jane' by Breaking Benjamin.
I sit down there looking stupid knowing how much I hate this school. I just couldn't wait for time to pass. Of course my girlfriend was there so that was something to look forward to but it felt lke I had no feeling for her. I just didn't want her but then again I did at the same time. My mind just gets cluttered over sh*t like this. I want to blow my f*cking brains out. As school goes by so slow I feel tired in most of my classes. Algebra class is a drag. P.E sucks becuase I don't want to swim. Its moving towards the end of the day. I didn't say too much to anyone not even my friends. I just want to strikeout on my own.
School is over. I walk outside after coming from the 3rd floor. I go outside. I go to a police station becuase that is where my grandmother is parked when she picks me up. I walk all by myself not scared or thinking of a damn thing in the world that can hurt me or kill me. I get in the car and head home. My day was just so F'ed up.
More to come....
The sun was shining as the breeze of wind gave off a brief chill every now and then. I get up out of bed and wash up. Everytime I see myself in the mirror I see a garbage can. Useless. My grandmother depends on me to be someone becuase she says "Im the only one in the family that can do something right besides my aunt". I believed it and sometimes this stopped me from commiting suicide. I go downstairs and eat breakfast. Simple like most days I had honey nut cheerios. I ignored every word my brother spoke to me. As I walked back upstairs to my room I went right to my dresser. I pulled out a black shirt with the Slipknot band on it. I put it on and then I went to put on my tight denim dark blue jeans followed by my black converse.
I felt kind of depressed. I hate having to go to a school with thugs and whores that have no respect. I hurriedly went to the bathroom and painted my nails black.Once I was finished I waited until my grandmother was ready to drive me to school. Its close to summertime so these gangs can go crazy over something like me. I arrived to school walking down the sidewalk and looking forward like I was in a trance. I went inside and went through the metal detector. I have nothing. Im clean. I walk into the lunchroom where a few other students were waiting. I sat by a table all by myself and listened to my Ipod.
I would always listen to "Diary of jane' by Breaking Benjamin.
I sit down there looking stupid knowing how much I hate this school. I just couldn't wait for time to pass. Of course my girlfriend was there so that was something to look forward to but it felt lke I had no feeling for her. I just didn't want her but then again I did at the same time. My mind just gets cluttered over sh*t like this. I want to blow my f*cking brains out. As school goes by so slow I feel tired in most of my classes. Algebra class is a drag. P.E sucks becuase I don't want to swim. Its moving towards the end of the day. I didn't say too much to anyone not even my friends. I just want to strikeout on my own.
School is over. I walk outside after coming from the 3rd floor. I go outside. I go to a police station becuase that is where my grandmother is parked when she picks me up. I walk all by myself not scared or thinking of a damn thing in the world that can hurt me or kill me. I get in the car and head home. My day was just so F'ed up.
More to come....